NOT AGAIN

NOT AGAIN!!!

 
A couple of years back I was down in pain, I was hurt, I felt my dreams were shuttered, I didn't think I would survive. I needed friends but my then friends left me cause they thought I was a bother & was looking for attention or sympathy or pity….
It was darkness all around me, I wept day in day out. I cried for help but none was coming to my aid. I whispered to myself “you are all alone be strong” and I decided to stand up, it was hard, my heart was heavy, my bones were worn out, my legs were shaking oh my I couldn’t stand but I tried as hard as I could each time I couldn’t.
I fell each time I would try, I fumbled my way up, I staggered my dear but I managed to get up but I couldn’t move. I was so burdened by everything and a lot of question went through my head,WHY me?? WHO did I wrong?? WHAT did I do?? WHY am I even alive ETC but no one to answer but me. But I realized getting up was not all,  I needed to forget & forgive my past!! Easier said than done! How do I forget all my hurt, the pains, the betrayal how do I even forgive? But I realized that I will not make a step till I do. It took me months to do that because a lot was taken from me. My dreams, my joy, happiness, my life was full of bitterness, pain but I had to do that. I felt a relief. It was time to put the first step up into the dark place as i find light, I cried for someone to hold my hand but to no avail others laughed, counted days for me but all this I had to forgive & push on. I picked my little broken pieces of me, I dint have the strength to glue them together so I walked with them, I couldn’t give anyone to glue them for me because I did not trust any HUMAN being. I remembered there is a supreme being, though I was mad at him for letting all this happen to me I found myself trusting Him and He gave me His word( Jeremiah 29:11, Romans 8:28, 1 Cor 10:12, 2 Cor 12:9 & etc) then I remembered that He honors His name and word more than anything.
With all that I had to believe and step to the unknown, I staggered but by each step I got strong and I started seeing the light and God stayed true to His word and sent me angels to help me through. I was weak,  he made me strong, I was a sinner but He forgave me, He did not hold any of what I did against me (HOW WONDERFUL), though I cry I also laugh, though am sad am also happy, because I know nothing lasts, its just a matter of time. Enough of my story right!!! What am trying to let you know is that I made it. I did not take the whole village to help me rise it took ME, I don’t care what situation you are in right now, what your closed people around you have done to you but you cannot continue to stay there and lament, you cannot continue waiting for help rescue to come your way,you need to step up. Yes it is hard no need to tell me that for I know, but you need to step, you are struck down but not destroyed, you are down but not out. You can rise above that situation and begin to walk, I don’t know where you are reading this from, in hospital, in your workplace, home, car or school but wherever you are just know that for you to move you need to FORGET & FORGIVE the past. You cannot continue to carry the pain, hurt, bitterness in the future. Stop burdening yourself with all that, the past is full of a lot. LET IT GO! As hard as it is, you have to. Only YOU have to, is it a new beginning you want? Are you hoping for something? Step with courage and BELIEVE, I did it so can you. I made a decision that I won’t let ANYTHING or ANYONE bring me down or back to where I was and its not too late for you to make the same decision and step up. You will cry, you will be hurt, you will be looked down upon, you will be mocked etc but don’t give up or let that take you back or bring you down. It is just but a matter of TIME. As I went through all that, as I walked in the darkness finding light I heard a voice telling me “have faith”,and the bible says if only you can have little faith as a MUSTARD SEED,it made known to me that a mustard seed is so small,tiny for that matter,my dear have faith and begin stepping and before you know you will be stepping in the light…‪
#‎BeEncouraged‬ my loved one,yes you CAN just BELIEVE that’s all you need…
‪#‎LookAtMe&BeEncouraged‬

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